Sunday, 26 July 2009

iPhonery and getting paid

I went and got an iPhone when I got paid this week. Perhaps an individual with greater restraint would have waited until, say, her blogsite was up and running before she felt she had earned such a fabulous toy as this. Lucky for me, I felt no such qualms. Unfortunately now the deed is done I feel a bit guilty that my writing career hasn't come to such a point where I can justify having earned this. To sort of try and make up for this, I'm blogging off my iPhone now to justify getting it.

The thing is that I haven't really done a lot of writing since I started work. I've done a bit on a few lunch hours but once I'm home, by god I'm tired. Also had a lot on my mind at the moment so my priorities have been a bit different lately. Yeah, excuses excuses, I hear ya.

But in my guilt I've written quite a bit today and it's made me feel pretty good. The lunch hours I've spent writing have given me such a good feeling, such a sort of buzz, I just wish I wasn't so tired all the time!

This rambling blog and the quite productive day I've had today have made me feel a lot better; I am a proper person who does proper things and doesn't just doss about all day playing on her new phone. Probably...

Apologies if this doesn't make a lot of sense, but being a proper person with an 8 to 5 job is really tiring! I'm going to google some weird things now, all in the name of research... I wish I could tell you but it would ruin the endings of what I'm writing at the moment!


-- Post From My iPhone

Saturday, 18 July 2009

Stuff is most definitely happening...

I love the word *definitely*. It is a beautiful word, it takes no prisoners (except those who cannot spell it), and when you use it, you promise to deliver. It has the power of conviction and means what it says. Yes, I love the word *definitely*.

As such, when I say "my blogsite will definitely be up and running before Christmas", that means I ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO do it. Don't get me wrong, I want to do it, I'm wishing it would be done sooner but here's the thing: I'm scared. If I do this thing, and it's crap, I will have failed. However, if I do nothing and nothing happens to me and I don't get to be a writer, I never have to face up to the fact I'm potentially rubbish. I won't have failed because I never tried.

I tried to be an illustrator, and for a long time my bent ran towards all things painting and drawing. I have since completed my degree (2-1, yay!) and in the course of doing the whole thing realised I was a bit rubbish and can't actually do it (the only reason I got a 2-1 is because of the lengthy dissertation which pulled my grade up). I sort of wasted 4 years of my life pursuing an art career when all along what I should have been doing was writing. I was writing at the same time, but it's not the same.

So you see, I already know what it's like to realise everything you're doing is wrong. It's scary. I was in denial for about a year and a half that I was doing the wrong thing, because realising you've set your path in the wrong direction is scary, especially when you're in the middle of a three year course.

At the beginning of the third year I finally admitted I was doing the wrong thing, and one of the things that made me realise I was kidding myself was looking at the work of one of my friends on the course. She was doing what I wished I could but wasn't able to. I'd got to a point where whenever I was working I would rather be reading or writing, and it was hard to fight.

Taking all this into consideration, I decided against illustrating the blogsite - I had a go but things weren't exactly how I wanted them, and I don't have the skills to make it right.... So, I've asked Kirsty to do them for me!

Like me she graduates this year, and like me is just starting out doing her stuff, but her website is already some kind of awesome, and I've asked her if I can commission her to do a few pics for me when I've a bigger catalogue of work over the coming months:)

You can check out some of her work here:
http://www.kirstymordaunt.co.uk

In other news (briefly) I started work, it's good because it's money and it's nice to meet new people, and it motivates me because I don't want to be doing it for ever (oh, but I'm just so passionate about admin!) but sweet mercy am I tired...

ZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

Saturday, 11 July 2009

Some stuff

Some stuff: it's my birthday. woo.

Other stuff: I start work on Monday... yay for getting paid!

Some other stuff: I've done some sort of actual work. A bit of drawing here and there, and OH GOOD HEAVENS, had a major, MAJOR breakthrough in the plot of TEH BIG STOREH (as I think I shall now refer to it by). It's nice cos I've been worried about this, but finally I have a sort of secondary plot THING which makes it more of a well rounded... THING. Yes, I'm really working the English language hard today...

Er, other other stuff: I have set myself a deadline, and if I put it up here, I have, HAVE to meet it... I want the blogsite (schmogsite) up and running, with stories and illustrations on it by XMAS... which sounds like a long time but I'm including my TEH BIG STOREH in it, current length 14,000 words, I want at least my first draft done by then.... eep. Well that's.... 5 months 2 weeks... better get started then!

But first, because it's my birthday, I'm going to the pub :)

Sunday, 5 July 2009

Enormous Boons

You know what they say about things happening in groups? Bad things happen in threes, apparently, do good things as well? Well what with the job joy, the depression lifted and I managed to start writing again:D Hence, enormous boon!

I finished a story I'd started a while ago, I don't know if I like it or not, I wrote two alternate endings and am awaiting feedback from trusted associates as to whether it should be binned or not. Also started another story which I'm rather more fond of, but give it time, I'll hate it in the long run I'm sure...

Re: designing the blogsite, I haven't really done anything with it, feeling a bit bad about that. Oh, I've got plans and ideas but that's all in my head and doesn't really count as work... That, other than continuing writing, is the next on the to do list. Printed a few pictures off at uni for a friend and realised I missed all the drawing and photoshopping that went with illustration so that's given me a bit of motivation for the blogsite designing:) Keep your eyes open for changes, but not too much cos I'm sure it'll all take a good while...

Thursday, 2 July 2009

Call me Steve Jobs...

Because I've got a job! Woooooo and indeed hoooooooo!
Which is really nice, actually. I've stopped living on so strict a budget for now and it's just so liberating!

Writing wise, I'm still in something of a slump. You know in cartoons and comics when there's a big fight and it ends up just like a cloud with legs and fists and things? Just random bits and dust dotted about around this cloud where nothing can be distinguished? That is what my brain is like at the moment. It's like some cartoon characters fighting in there.

As such, I'm going to make one kick ass huge To Do list, organise myself, and use the last week before I start work as fully as I can. Well, that's the plan anyway...